A Kingdom for a Soul
It had
been a strange journey, Orrin thought as he approached the path into the mountains
that ascended steeply. Strange and cold.
He
had followed the signs as he had been bidden.
Crossed the oak tree with a branch of yew. Blinked twice at the Pool of the Fallen Faeries. Chanted the Poem of the Wandering Lost in the
Cave of Being.
And
so far none of it had restored what he had lost.
The
thing was, he needed help, and he needed it desperately. He had come to realize a folly he had made in
his youth and was desperate to right it.
He would take all the help he could get, and do all the tasks set before
him. He would dance naked around a
thousand faerie rings, if that was what it took to get his soul back.
For
Orrin had sold his soul.
It had
happened long ago, when life appeared less sweet. When the world seemed as though it had
nothing to offer. And when ego said it
did not matter if one possessed the essence of a self in exchange for all the
power and riches one could imagine. What
was self, Orrin had thought, when one could have what one could never work to
earn? It was a whole kingdom he received.
An
unfair exchange, he had slowly begun to realize over time.
And
now, as life offered him the one thing he craved most, he knew that he could
never have it—though he had given away his kingdom and shed his wealth—until
he had back his soul.
Thus,
after he had returned that for which he had traded his soul away, he had gone
to the wizard at the edge of the wood who had looked him up and down, first
kindly, then sadly, then with the gaze a wizard has that makes its object feel
small—and then had sent Orrin on his journey, the final step to gaining back
his soul.
But
Orrin had done all that the wizard had asked of him, save one. Only the Lake of Glass remained. This was where he would find his soul.
He
shivered.
The
air glittered with cold. Or perhaps that
was the effect of the frost that covered everything about him.
There
it was.
A
lake, frozen solid.
He
leaned over and his reflection beamed up at him.
So
did something else.
The
merest hint, a shadow, a tiny flickering.
It was a thing he recognized. He
had known it long ago. It was his soul. And it had, after long last, been restored.
He
went back by way of the wizard, and as he stepped inside the old man’s home, he
said, ‘Your plan succeeded, old sir. I
have found that which I sought to recover.’
‘Of
course you did,’ said the Wizard, a twinkle in his eye. ‘It never left. And so I sent you on a quest where the chants
and branches and waters did nothing. But
once you believed it was there, well, there it was. For a soul, as it truly is, can never truly be
sold.’
Orrin
stared at the Wizard and pondered all that he had done to retrieve his
soul. His kingdom gone, his wealth diminished,
and with it his person a shallow drop in the bucket of humanity. It was then that he noticed something else—something
strong within him that had been offered but never before received. He was at peace.
‘Ah, but
I would never have seen it there without the journey to find it,’ he said to
the wizard, who simply sat and smiled, happy to see someone no longer lost.